Fair Warning…

I apologize to those who follow my blog that nothing new has been added in 2 or 3 weeks.  I have been fighting with the MS that seems to want to screw with my hands and I absolutely dislike talking into a microphone while the computer prints my words.  This old broad doesn’t work that way.

Anyway, the anger towards the state our nation is in has been building – and I have been taking copious mental notes about the string of injustices that have occurred in the past month.  Today I plan to park my butt in front of my computer and write my little fingers off.

If I don’t post it today, it will definitely appear tomorrow.  My apologies to Cry and Howl for not being a good contributor.  I promise to do better in the future.


Thank you, Obamacare! Love, Your Newest Victim


It is clear that the Ego in Chief doesn’t give a rat’s left gonad about the people of this country unless they are about to enter a voting booth.  Everything he does is to benefit himself(ie), as evidenced above.

With that said, I am going to engage in a little self-centered conversation for a moment – but, my problem may ultimately affect millions of Americans.

As many of you know, I have Primary Progressive Multiple Sclerosis.  Anyone with GOOD medical insurance (at least those of you who have not yet received cancellation notices) might know how difficult it is to get an appointment with a Neurologist or other specialist.  When I was working and had a “Platinum” plan, I had to wait 3 months for an appointment to confirm the diagnosis my GP gave me after taking an MRI.  I also have hypertension that is finally – sort of – under control after years of working with my doctor to find the correct combination of medications.

After losing my job (another story for another time) I could not afford the COBRA plan.  Colorado has a program called Colorado Indigent Care Program (CICP) and I was able to receive basic care with a small co-pay for a while.  I was advised to apply for Supplemental Security Income Disability Insurance and it took 7 years of applying and re-applying before I was finally approved in 2012.

I now live on $710.00 per month plus I am entitled to Medicaid.  I cannot get SNAP because I am told I make too much (huh?)  or any other assistance from the State.  It is not that I WANT the help, but some days I think it would be nice since I worked hard all of my life and contributed to these programs whenever I received a paycheck.  I am not working because I cannot work – not because I am some welfare baby who lived my life lying on my ass watching Ellen or Days of our Lives.

Yesterday I got an odd phone call from my pharmacy.  It was a robo-call saying that there was a glitch with one of my medications that they were working to clear up.  Okay.  So, I waited and waited, but never got another call.  I intended to pick up my meds today.  I have 10 refills left.  So, I finally called the pharmacy and they told me they could not refill my hypertension meds because Medicaid dropped it from their covered pharmaceuticals.  This medication costs $125.00 a month and there is no generic available.  I cannot afford it anymore, but if I stop it without phasing off of it the side effects include stroke , cardiac “event”, fainting – you know, all the fun stuff.  I never received a notice from Medicaid and now worry that my other meds may not be covered either.  I see many hours on the phone talking to morons in my future.

As of today, according to The Washington Post (I chose a Barry-friendly source so that no one could accuse me of using “flawed” reports from Fox News):

“Approximately 365,000 of those people have purchased private insurance and 803,000 have been determined to be eligible for the public Medicaid program. These numbers count data from both October and November, and show an especially quick growth in HealthCare.gov enrollment.”

EIGHT HUNDRED AND THREE THOUSAND!?!?  I can barely get appointments with my doctors now!  What is going to happen to all of those disabled, poor, elderly or chronically ill patients who have been on Medicaid due to a real need for years?  Are we all going to get pushed aside and left to rot?

I guess, as long as Barry has a hot Danish dignitary to flirt and take selfies with in front of his wife, the American people are not even worth his time giving a shit about…

I will admit that I’m scared and don’t know where to go from here.


Pure, unadulterated disgust…that is EXACTLY how I feel right now.  I will not edit my comments (except some cuss words – and TRUST ME there are some real doozies floating around in my head right now!).

First of all, I believe that the few idiots (the protesters) who called out racial epithets should have been unceremoniously removed from the grounds.   It made me sick to see grown people act in such a racist way in this day and age.  All they did was validate people like Janeane Garofalo.

HOWEVER…when the Bitch of the House (warned you…I’m pissed) gathered her minions around her for a photo op, she only exacerbated the situation.  Gave credence to the idiots.   Nancy, sweetheart, this is NOT  Selma.

I am not the kind of person who takes charity easily.  I have lived my life as a self-sufficient individual through some very hard times.   Many of my readers do not know EVERYTHING about me.  I never felt it was necessary.  I have survived poverty, molestation, Multiple Sclerosis, domestic violence at the hands of a coward, sub-standard medical treatment during the birth of my daughter (they left medical equipment in me)  and stood tall.  After all of that, believe it or not, THIS HEALTH CARE BILL scares me.

And don’t you DARE tell me if I read the bill I will like it.  Bullshit.  I HAVE read everything that has been posted on the internet.  I may not have a college degree…yet…but I do have an IQ of 146.  Reading comprehension was never a problem.  Legalese was just another language I taught myself.  I KNOW that when the Government runs out of money to fund the monster they have just created, I will not be a priority.  Will I live to see my daughter have her first child?   Will I be important enough to spend money on?  If I have to go on Medicaid, will I be worth an MRI, a wheelchair?  After all, I am almost 50 and disabled.

All I can say is FUCK YOU BARACK OBAMA.  I hope you sleep well tonight.


As an addendum to this post, I spent 7 years trying to get Social Security (my money) and finally won my case.  I now receive $710 per month, can have tangible assets no greater than a cumulative total of $2,000 or they will take it away.  I just had to advise my Neurologist that I can no longer see him because I cannot afford an MRI.  Medicaid pays $530 – an MRI costs $2,500.  Obamacare’s medical implements “fees” have kicked in and this is just the beginning, folks!   Katrina – May 27, 2013

I can’t HEAR you!!!

The following letters were emailed to me in response to requests I sent to both Senator M. Udall and Senator M. Bennet – both Democrats representing Colorado.

I explained my concerns to both Senators – that I do not support Health Care Reform even though I have a disability.

If this is an example of how well Congress listens to their constituents, we are in BIG trouble.

Boy, I can’t wait for 2010!!!

Dear Friend:

Thank you for your e-mail message. Hearing from Coloradans is important to me. I will respond to your concerns in the near future. In the meantime, I am especially glad you reached out, because it gives me a chance to briefly introduce myself and share with you some of my priorities for Colorado.

Our country faces serious challenges today: rising unemployment, home foreclosures, and companies on the verge of bankruptcy. Congress and the President have set bold goals for our country to address these challenges and lay the foundation for sustainable, long-term economic growth. We must make responsible investments in health care, education, and our new energy economy, while providing much-needed tax cuts to middle-class families. As we do so, however, we must work to reduce the deficit, because economic recovery will be short-lived if we mortgage our children’s future to achieve it.

It will be my mission every day in the Senate to represent all corners of Colorado and do everything in my power to stand up for the natural beauty and Western values that make our state unique. If you need assistance from my office, or if you need help dealing with a federal agency, please use the link below to access our casework form. If you are not a Colorado resident, I encourage you to contact the U.S. Senators from your state directly.

Please send all scheduling requests to Scheduler@bennet.senate.gov or fax to 202-228-4083.

Once again, thank you for contacting me.


November 22, 2009

Dear Katrina,

Thank you for your recent message to my U.S. Senate office.  Each week, over 10,000 Coloradans send me their thoughts and suggestions.  This unprecedented volume is a testament to the interest that Coloradans take in the issues facing our nation.

Coloradans have contacted my office about the economic recovery bill, energy, the environment, small business, education, health care, and numerous other important topics.  I appreciate hearing from each one of you because understanding your views is fundamental to my job.  Please know that my staff reads each one of your letters and e-mails and keeps me consistently updated on Coloradans’ concerns.

I am honored to serve as your U.S. Senator.  My top priority in the Senate is to provide efficient and effective service to people across our state.  Please know that my Colorado staff is available to handle specific services relating to the federal government (such as help with a passport, claim for veterans’ benefits, or a citizenship matter).  My Denver office can be reached at 303-650-7820.  If you would like to check on a request for services from my Washington, D.C. office, please call 202-224-5941 or toll-free at 877-7-MUDALL (877-768-3255).  Otherwise, be assured that we are reading your comments.

I will continue to listen closely to what you and other Coloradans have to say about matters before Congress, the concerns of our communities, and the issues facing Colorado and the nation.  My job is not about merely supporting or opposing legislation; it is also about bridging the divide that has paralyzed our nation’s politics.  For more information about my positions and to learn how my office can assist you, please visit my website at www.markudall.senate.gov.
Warm Regards,

Mark Udall
United States Senator, Colorado


December 7, 2009

Dear Katrina,

Thank you for contacting me regarding health insurance reform.  I appreciate your taking the time to express your specific views on this important topic facing our nation.

As you know, many proposals have been put on the table for reforming our health care system to make it work for all Americans.  I recognize there are many, often competing, philosophies and ideas on the best way to move forward.  As your Senator, it is my job to listen closely to the various stakeholders involved in this process as well as actively seek out input from across the state to help inform my understanding of what is best for Colorado.  One thing I firmly believe, however, is that the status quo is unacceptable and unsustainable.

As the U.S. Senate continues to debate health insurance reform, there are a number of key requirements which will guide my consideration.  Any health reform must: 1) allow people who like the coverage they currently have to keep it; 2) bring costs down so that all Coloradans are able to cover their families while staying within their means; 3) preserve the critical doctor-patient relationship, ensuring that decisions about treatment are made by those who know the patient the best; 4) call for insurers to provide coverage regardless of pre-existing conditions or medical history; and 5) be fiscally responsible.  By ensuring that these pieces are part of reform, we can provide the stability in health care that is currently lacking for hard working Coloradans – stable costs, stable coverage, and stable quality.  Cost-effective ideas to improve health like emphasizing prevention and wellness programs, early screening and diagnosis, and chronic disease management are just a few pieces of the puzzle that I think can help us get there.

Another important piece to the puzzle is ensuring that health reform expands access to care for those living in rural communities, which is why I recently introduced legislation known as the Rural Physician Pipeline Act of 2009 (S.1628).  This bill is designed to improve health care in rural communities by helping medical schools establish programs to recruit and train medical students who want to practice in rural areas.  The provisions in this legislation are based on a successful program at the University of Colorado School of Medicine, and there is evidence to suggest that, if similar programs are expanded, as called for in my bill, we can dramatically increase the number of rural doctors nationwide.

Additionally, health reform must include provisions aimed at helping to alleviate the financial burden placed on small business owners who struggle to provide health coverage to their employees.  This is especially true for those small businesses that have seen the cost of coverage grow at such an alarming rate that they are unable to stay competitive in maintaining a talented pool of workers.  Small businesses are the driving force of our economy and we must pass health insurance reform which provides them a pooled marketplace from which to purchase coverage and offers credits to make plans affordable.

Reforming our health care system will not be easy, but it is imperative.  As Congress continues looking for the best ways to meet our nation’s health care challenges, please know that I will always keep the best interests of Coloradans in mind.  Along the way, I will certainly remember your particular thoughts and concerns.

Please visit my website at www.markudall.senate.gov/healthreform to see up-to-date information regarding the ongoing health insurance debate.

I will continue to listen closely to what you and other Coloradans have to say about matters before Congress, the concerns of our communities, and the issues facing Colorado and the nation.  My job is not about merely supporting or opposing legislation; it is also about bridging the divide that has paralyzed our nation’s politics.  For more information about my positions and to learn how my office can assist you, please visit my website at www.markudall.senate.gov.
Warm Regards,

Mark Udall
United States Senator, Colorado


December 11, 2009

Dear Friend,

We wanted to provide you with an update on the progress of health care reform and our efforts to strengthen – and pass – this landmark legislation. We are closer than ever to accomplishing monumental reform.

We are hard at work to provide you with security and stability with your health insurance, ensure you have access to quality, affordable health care, and rein in out-of-control health care costs. The health care reform bill will put an end to insurance company denials for pre-existing conditions and ensure you have coverage you can count on – that can’t be taken away.

This week we joined 9 other Senate freshmen in announcing a package of amendments that will work to lower costs and move our health care system into the 21st Century. This means less paperwork, less fraud and lower costs. And it means quality time with your doctor and better value for your dollar.

This bill will also protect and strengthen Medicare. Seniors will continue to have guaranteed access to their doctors, home health care providers, nursing homes, prescription drugs and hospital care. We will extend the Medicare trust fund, lower premiums or cost-sharing, increase Medicare benefits and improve access to providers. And we will eliminate co-pays seniors have to pay for preventive care – making seniors’ colonoscopies or mammograms free.

Together, we will continue to fight for a bill that gives patients more choices, reduces costs and doesn’t add one dime to the deficit – all goals that we believe can be achieved with the help of a strong public option.

We can and must pass meaningful health care reform because the status quo is no longer an option. If we do nothing, we will be left with a system that puts profits before patients and leaves millions of Americans paying too much for their insurance or without any health care at all.

We’re optimistic that in the coming weeks we can achieve meaningful health care reform for Colorado’s families.

Your Senators,

Mark Udall and Michael F. Bennet

It is obvious to me that neither Senator has any interest in listening to the people who do not want Health Care Reform as outlined by Congress.  From day one, they chose to tow the party line.  Before anyone freaks out and reminds me that the Republicans are doing the same thing, let me just say I AM FULLY AWARE OF THAT.

When I state that I cannot wait for 2010, I am not only speaking about voting Democratic Senators out of office…I am in favor of sending them ALL home.  Term limits are a beautiful thing.

This is a Joke…right?

I was denied SSI four times.  I now receive twice-monthly surveys from an independent company asking how my experience with the Social Security Administration was?  “IT SUCKED” was obviously not the response they were looking for because the little reminder cards keep-a-comin’.  Mind you, all correspondence is tagged with the reminder that they are in strict compliance with the “Paperwork Reduction Act of blah, blah, blah…”  Goody for them.

What I want to know is how do they have the BALLS to go on a vacation to a resort in Arizona, hire an independent company to produce useless surveys and still deny SSI to someone with a disease that is progressive and inevitably devastating?

My daughter and Me

My daughter and Me

To top it all off, my daughter has Factor V Liden, a blood clotting disorder.   She suffered a massive stroke at 18 which left her in a coma for 2 weeks and rendered her unable to speak for 6 months.  Thankfully, my ex-husband had good health insurance, because I shudder to think what would have happened to her if we had to rely on the government for help.  She will probably never be able to collect a dime of the money she has paid into Social Security upon her retirement because there will be NOTHING LEFT.

How much more are we supposed to take?  I just don’t get it…

Hire the Handicapped…I’m Fun to Watch

Something I don’t talk about very often is Multiple Sclerosis.  I have it, I live with it and I laugh at myself a lot.  There are days (like today) when I get annoyed with my body because it won’t cooperate with my mind.  Keeps wanting to type “e” instead of “d”, etc.  However, I have a big future in mosaics if I can find the time to sort through all of the shards of dishes and glassware I have dropped on the kitchen floor.

I have always been extremely independent.  Leo with a Scorpio moon, Scorpio rising…karmically screwed, you know.  I was a tattoo artist for many years.  It was a great profession, I took it very seriously.  I quit tattooing shortly after my diagnosis because I felt I could not give my clients the best they deserved.

I do have a point, so bear with me for a moment.

I had disability insurance, which was cancelled because they said I am “not sufficiently disabled” to receive payments for the next 20 years.  Plus, they stated that I refused to use “approved medications” to treat my Multiple Sclerosis.  “Approved Medications” include, but are not limited to, subcutaneous injections into the stomach, thighs and back of the arms once every other day of Interferon.  This is a form of chemotherapy, though it is mild in comparison to that used for cancer.  OR, I can go into the hospital once a month and receive full-blown chemo for a year.  Yes, I tried injecting myself, and almost ended up hanging myself  from our ceiling fan.  I developed Agoraphobia and said ENOUGH…NO MORE!!! I watch my diet, keep active and refuse to act like a ninny. (Told ya I was a Leo)  I was also told that I do not go to the neurologist or get MRI’s often enough…uhm, you canceled my sole source of income and a Neurologist Visit costs $125 for a 15 minute session, an MRI with contrast dye is $1,700.   Dude…Seriously?

Since I have been unable to work for about 6 years now, I have not contributed to Social Security. BECAUSE I AM DISABLED, duh…  So, Social Security Disability is not available to me.  Supplemental Security Income could be available.  But I have been denied 4 times.  I am “not sufficiently disabled”.   Where have I heard that one before?

I should be one of the first people to jump on the healthcare bandwagon.  NO FREAKIN’ WAY!  I do not want the government jumping in and telling me I have to inject myself, I have to use chemo.  I don’t want them to assign sub-standard doctors to me or any other person in need of long-term medical care.  I would rather see the government fix Social Security, get illegal immigrants off of free government programs and give the citizens of this country the respect they deserve.  I have worked since I was 9 years old (alright, in the beginning it was only babysitting) and never shied away from hard work.  If I could maintain a full-time job, I would.  I am tired of the comments people make when I get out of my car (which I have handicapped plates for) and am having a good day.  Here I am, feeling good about myself for not walking like I crapped my pants for the first time in months, and my eyeliner is actually on my eyes, then some idiot brings me down by screeching across the parking lot that I am milking the system by faking disability.  Thank Goddess my middle finger still works 🙂

I do not want a Healthcare Reform Bill that is rushed through, unread, overloaded with pork and that gives better options to people who are not here legally than it does to the people who have dutifully paid into the largest Ponzi Scheme in world history – Social Security.

And that’s all I have to say about that…